I want...

My creative space, originally uploaded by *jenny b allsorts.

Today I was looking on different website trying to get ideas for different things. As I looked through more and more pictures I decided there are a lot of things I want from myself. So I think I should write them down...
I want....
to be creative and have a place to be creative in (example above)

to cut my hair

to be able to take great pictures like my hubby

to have the dedication to wake up every morning and take a walk with Walter

to be proactive about helping others when I think about it

to be a better friend

to have more room in my house

to have less "things" in my house

to read the entire BOM start to finish

to be an amazing mother just like mine

to Spend more time with just my hubby

people to stop getting divorced out of selfishness

to create more adventures for Cora

to learn how to grocery shop

to complete a half-marathon

to see Eryn

to just be a better person over-all

to buy school supplies

to go to school

to raise my girls to be strong, self-confident, lovely, and kind little girls

Maybe some day I will turn this into a checklist. Maybe some day I will be able to accept who I am and acknowledge the little accomplishments each day. Until then I will continue wanting.

Thoughts for 8/13/09

Today I was thinking that I wish my little girls had PAUSE II buttons. Not to pause Cora mid tantrum but pause to fully enjoy each baby girl individually. I would pause Cora to stare into her eyes while she's looking out the window at a bird. I would pause Penny so she'll stop changing and I can just snuggle her while she's still "little". I don't have the time with Penny that I had with Cora. I loved to just hold Cora while she slept and stare at every little inch of her face. Now with Penny I must do that in between helping Cora "cook" with her pots and KIX and helping her "build Jack". I grab a quick glance at Penny's every changing eyes before I put Cora on the potty, only to have her want to get right back off.
LIttle girls are something amazing and I am so lucky to have two.

Penny Teaser

Yes, she does exist.

Cora's 2nd Birthday!

I know it's August and Cora's birthday was in March. But at least there is pictures. I will be putting in text later.

Cora and Nolan 2028

These two have been subject to an arranged marriage. Nolan Thomas lives in Pleasanton, CA with his ma and pa and baby sister. They met us for the day in Gilroy for some garlic and pizza. Cora and Nolan shared a sweet moment while sharing an icy water. Won't they be cute together in 19 years?

A Penny

I know this is late and a new post is WAY overdue. But she is Penny Ann Stott was born May 15 at 2:40 am, weighing in at 7 lbs 12 oz and 20 inches. She has loads of hair and is pretty cool. In her first 3 weeks of life she has gone to a wedding, a funeral, visited Clovis, and marched in a Prop 8 rally. Needless to say she is tired along with her mother.
Daddy is setting up the studio today to snap of few shots of her so there will be more to post and much more to write. Here's to hoping this post will satisfy you all for the moment.

Cora's Story (2 Years Late.)

Cora turned 2 yesterday and it was such a fun day. Pictures will be coming soon but for this post I want to journal her original birthday.
Pete and I always knew we wanted to be surprised with the sex of our babies. So Cora's birth was so exciting. I had always felt it was going to be a boy, no reason just felt I would have a lot of boys. That was most people's guess as well. However there was one night I had a very vivid dream of holding a baby girl in the hospital. So when we had Cora that dream all made perfect sense.
My original due date was March 30, 2007. When I had my ultra-sound the doctor moved the date up to the 25th. However he never changed it in my records so they based everything off the original date of the 30th. This made me very anxious and as it got closer to the 25th I would keep reminding the Doc that he moved up the date. But he was still set on the 30th.
On Saturday March 25th I woke up at around 9:30 am and started doing some yard work. I set out to spray weeds and just as I got started my water broke. I wasn't really sure what was going on so I just went inside and took a shower. When Pete came in to see what I was doing I asked him what he thought. He was pretty sure it was my water so he had my call the hospital. The Hospital told me to come in and get checked and see where I was at. I finished getting ready and packed up a few things and we headed to the hospital.
When we got there they took us into a room where I waited for nurse to check me. She asked if I really thought my water broke because I wasn't even dilated. I told her it better have broke or I am embarrassed. Right then it completely broke and they admitted me. That was around 12:30 pm. For the next few hours Pete and I just hung out at the hospital. And lucky for me I wasn't feeling any pain. Pete left at around 4:30 to grab some lunch and I took that opportunity to get my epidural. He hates needles and I figured it would be best to get it while he was gone. I wasn't in any pain at the moment but I knew it was going to be a long day cause I wasn't moving along very fast.
The next few hours were very un-eventful and the day moved very slow. They started me on pitocin to speed things up a little bit but all that did was freak the baby out. The heartbeat dropped dramatically and then there was flurry of activity. I had no idea what was going on but I later learned they had to clip a monitor on the baby's head. They slowed the pitocin and let my body figure things out on it's own. Eventually things started to happen.
At around 11:00 pm I started to push and at 12:37 Cora was born. I had never been so exhausted in my life. At one point I asked the nurse and Pete to leave my alone and let me sleep for awhile. I was tired and hadn't eaten in almost 30 hours. I thought for sure I wouldn't be able to do it. But I did and Cora came weighing in at 8 lb. 4 oz. and was perfectly healthy.